harlowex again... got ballet tonite again. went to sarah's hse yesterday after being insane meeting all my tns juniors yesterday lolx. so it's bck to sch again today. i had to take the public bus to sch for sm reason. stupid bus came at 6.40... by the tym i reached sch i was 2 mins to being late... cos everyone was getting ready to commence flag raising. crap it...
then during maths lesson, danielle found out she had an insect nest under her desk woah. she freaked lolx. miss lim was as usual blabbering abt algebra... gosh i dun tink i can eva grasp the concept of algebra... arh. i just changed the class blogg's template. yar kinda pink... lykk tis post... but tt's the only appropriate blogskin i could find so far... hehs dun blame me.
as i said tonite gott ballet. alisha's making me tie her bun again. lolx. her hair damn phreaking thick... and i hope she remembers to bring her gel and comb... NOT LYKK THE OTHER TYM... and hopefully remembers her ballet stuff and NOT do a sarah / daryl. they'd knw wat i mean. hehs. oh yesh btw last nite... i was on friendster for the longest tym yet... i was looking into my frens' contacts and doing up the profile. i added quite a whole bunch of seniors. okayys damn... i've got a whole pile of hw waiting for me in my sch bag. i hear them calling for me. lolx. jkjk. getting lame... kaex... buais.
20050628.
Melt Away @ 16:51.
heyyo again!!! class blogg lykk dieded laiddat...sigh.no one's posting msg NOR tagging.pathetic.sigh.oh YESby the way...I'VE GOT THE JESSE MCCARTNEY CD!lolx thanx chi ying.now i've got a new cd in my collection.YAY!turning insane here. cos tmr's aholiday for me. and yesterday, tashi called andtold me all the ppl hu were doing the interfoun exam.they're deborah, tashi, beverly, li zhong,shanice, wei qin and i. i'm still feeling bad.alishaasks why.well how the hell am i supposed to knw?they ARE my friends after all, u cant expect to meact totally oblivious to tis rite? as for today.it's anthr day in sch as usual...maths WAS HORRID.okayys... better than doing algebra.cos i kinda lykk doing percentageaniwaex.she gaf us so much hw.mrs f. calledtingfang, elaine, natalie and i sotongs lolx.cos wedin knw the summary page was rite at the bck soshe say we sotong dun listen to her.haha.mrs f farnie.sotong gang((:btw, today's the last daymiss tan's tching us for hist...sigh... we've got tisnew tchr called miss quek...she seems phriggingstern.arh....she doesnt exude that bubbly andlively kind of look lyk mrs f and miss tan.but stilli dono...still waiting for the nxt lesson b4 i can tellisnt it?no assumptions made.
20050627.
Melt Away @ 16:42.
io.... bck to sch liao... partially unwillingly, partially happy. stupid maths hw i havent finished... i'm using willa's WS hehe ty very much willalalalalaaaaa~ chi ying lent me her kelly clarkson cd today and willa lent me her marion raven cd while i lend her my ciara cd. and tmr i'm lending chi ying my my chemical romance and my the used cd. ms lee says she's letting me do the interfoun exam. i'm feeling rellie bad cos alisha n' sarah cant do. alisha can do nxt yr so nvm *hehe not being evil ty very much* but for sarah... she's migrating in sep at first... if she's not allowed to do the exam tis yr, then she'll hv to leave for las vegas mid-august. SO BAD. she's leaving us. i'm tinking of going out wit her and a few othrs nxt week since it's public hols... most likely our first and last tymm outt togetherr... sorry getting pessimistic here... on wednesday thr's no sch. -YAY!!!- so i'm planning to go bck to tns ((: !!! i'm going thr during the p2 recess lolx... and i'm gonna disturb whoever's teaching 6C! gnarl!!! lolx. i hope it's either mrs tan or mdm tan ((: hehe i'm evil lolx. then after tt i go disturb sarah and zoie. lolx. disturbing taonanites lalalalala... sch was kinda okay today la.. history was unbearable, literature tchr not here today, english, we got our class photo ((: tingfang said she looked retarded... sigh. weird la she. for once i looked okay in class photo!!! lolx. -ego-alert- mrs f's stomach getting bigger liao!!! damn obvious now. recess i finished the last of my chinese hw... after recess we had chinese... class was so dead that i almost fell asleep... chi ying they all were tuned out... the sch prefects implemented a new disciplinary system... SIGH. now i cant swear as frequent as i do. STUPID DEMERIT SYSTEM. hrmph. okayy... enuf going mad here. byee. gotta do maths now. stupid brain.
20050625.
Melt Away @ 19:07.
i'm playing MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE cd... alisha finally returned it to me today... arh... BUT IT WAS SCRATCHED!!!! argh alisha... how could you... lolx. i sent sis for ballet class today then had my breakfast at mcdonalds lolx... on the way thr sarah saw me... so i went wit her. she said she already had her breakfast... in the end? she took one of my pancakes or wtv u call it... coincidentally we were wearing the same shirt... you knw... the tns walk-a-thon shirt... then after tt, we were abt to head off to crestar but it was raining lykk crap... so i opened my umbrella... the moment i stepped out i slipped and dropped my cup of milo and the damned puddle of water thnx to the rain wetted my bag and stockings. fuck la... stupid... i shldnt hv worn slippers... damn puddle... when sarah and i got up to crestar, i tried looking for a hand dryer in the adult toilet... DUN HV!!!! so i had to use the kiddo toilet... i gave up hope of drying it liao so went bck to tok to sarah alisha and all... during class, ms lee said everyone in my class had passed the Grd 6 exam with distinction except for one... shocking isnt it... so many distinctions... but the start at 70 marks so it's easy stuff... but still!!!!! i tink it could be me... sigh... i fell during adage tt tym... sigh... but i so badly dun want to break my record... fucking pissed and confused. arh anyone seeing tis... i'm tinking of going bck to TNS on wed'... any takers? i cant even understand myself. i'm feeling confused for no apparent reason. i'm on tis thin line of hating him and liking him? it isnt fun to live life like that... smtyms he acts lykk a total jerk ass and smthn he's jus plain nice. weird ass. "fucking hell. forget him why don't you"- well everytym i decide on tt, smthn has to crop up and HAS TO DO WIT HIM. he's making my life fucking miserable. ARGH
20050624.
Melt Away @ 23:01.
Hey ppl... tis' a quiz i got frm ruici's blogg... lolx
1.Have you ever fallen asleep in class? - Yea... esp geog ((: 2. Have you ever eaten pork? - yes and i hated it. 3. Have you ever vomited in a vehicle? - according to mum... yea lolx 4. Have you ever beat up a friend? - yes. violent. yes i am ty.. 5. Have you ever slap ur partner? - wat kind of partner? 6. Have you ever smoke? - THY SHALT NOT SMOKETH. 7. Have you ever gotten so drunk? - nope 8. Have you ever ride an elephant? - it'll be cool... but no. 9. Have you ever feel as if u are gonna die? - yesh. saddist. ((: 10. Have you ever hug ur crush? - eurgh hug? i'm against them... only ruici's mum has hugged me before on the psle collection day. -shivers- 11. Have you ever played with fire? - yea. IT'S DAMN FUN!!! 12. Have you ever cried for the one u love? - love: family? friends? or WAT? 13. Does he or she know about it? - about? putting a spider in his bag? i tink he does ((: 14. Have you ever fallen from a bicycle? - yea. cos i dun ride bikes hehe... 15. Will u die for the one u love? - who the bloody hell are the loved ones u're referring to? 16. Have you ever missed someone so badly? - hmm... NO 17. Have you ever passed out after an event? - no... i wonder how it feels.... 18. Have you ever gotten stones thrown at u?- nope 19. Who is yr longest frenz?- Gregory. since K1. wonderful isnt it? lolx 20. Have you ever got pepper in ur eyes? - i think so... then again... maybe not? 21. Have you ever got a surprise present? - yea. 22. Have you ever been on a diet? - diet? no ((: 23. Have you ever stripped someone naked? - EW NO. 24. Have you ever taken a picture of urself naked? - now THAT'S simply retarded and fucking sick. 25. Have you ever club till dawn? - underaged. 26. Have you ever been in a lift with someone who has body odour? - Lift: no; Bus: yes 27. Have you ever been so angry u feel like killing the person?- Obviously 28. Have you ever been betrayed by a friend? - yesh.UNAMED TO BE DAMNED TO FUCKING HELL. 29. Have you ever break up due to the existence of a third party? - that's not a question i can answer 30. Have you ever wanna commit suicide? - read my profile. suicidal thoughts. wat u think? 31. Have you ever challenged ur teacher? - wat tchr? ballet? sch? piano? 32. Have you ever lost ur cell phone? - no, not yet 33. Have you ever lost in gambling? - yea... lolx. 34. Have you ever been told that u are cute? - long tym ago 35. Have you ever had a crush? - *undisclosed* 36. Have you ever confessed ur feelings? - of what? 37. Have you ever gotten urself into trouble? - uncountable times and events ((: 38. Have you ever lied to ur parents? - wat you think? 39. Have you ever been robbed? - no 40. Do you really like a guy/girl a lot? - no
20050623.
Melt Away @ 14:13.
i've caught a bad cold. can hardly breathe properly. cant survive the day without tissues and coughing like an idiot. pointe work hurts. seriously man... my ankles are filled with excruciating pain whenever i stand on demi pointe even. ms lee started pointe work last night. today brains not working as usual... i left my ballet shoes at home while i went for dance... had to use amelia's ribbon shoes... her feet damn narrow... squeezing my toes out of space. lol... as usual la... ramona and a few of us were bored lykk crap during dance. julia misplaced her tap shoes today lolx... searching high n low for them... some how, a girl found them... i dono how man... i've still not finished my homework... how hardworking can i get man... sch holidays are ending nxt week sigh... aniwaex, i lurved yesterday's class. alisha, a few othrs n' i were discussing biatches and butches. lolx. altogether we're called the retarded society, as lame as it sounds, i wanna change the name. but hv no idea wat to change to leh... and 2 days ago, zi wei came over to my hse. arh at long last. sigh la... ppl getting taller... making me feel so short... first nadine, then ruici, then gregory, now zi wei. sigh... BLACK NAIL POLISH!!! lol... i'm mad. on the brink of being retarded, indulged in insanity and seriously over-corrupted. ((: hey, but without that, wat wld life be?
20050619.
Melt Away @ 18:45.
it's been barely a week since i've bought ciara's CD lolx. went out for dinner in suntec yesterday la... then i had nthnto do... went to wander around in Tower Records. intrigued by My Chemical Romance's new album... i've been waiting for lykk 2 months liao.... yea i knw some ppl have JUST heard abt them and some ppl dont EVEN KNOW THEM. well i saw one of their videos like in april?? but anyways, they seriously rock. ((: heck to wat i wore yesterday. miss kok did class on thursday... miss tan... or one of my senoirs under ms lee (teacher now la) took us yesterday and gwen & ivy took us today. but many ppl din come today la... cos slacking at home... i nthn to do so mite as well go. retarded sarah forgot to bring her ballet attire. her socks were so idiotic tt we made her take it off. lolx sarah... she was KNITTING some more lolx... diao =.='''... alisha's sick. gna get well soon. daryl came bck frm aus on thursday but din turn up for class till lykk TODAY?! her damned zip of the top she was wearing got stuck to her hair. we're larfing lykk shit lorh... laiddt oso can get stuck?!?!? argh screwed la. for the next week, i've to tie my hair PROPERLY for dance in sch. argh my hair.. so difficult to tie... kena fall out of place halfway. WOAH... way humiliating lolx. i was about to fall asleep on friday. i dono why... guess i was too tired after miss tan's class the nite b4. but it WAS fun you've gotta admit. as for now... i hv no idea wat to do. cos the damn comp is fucking up on me. argh... so freaking *toot* computer....
20050616.
Melt Away @ 14:32.
arghhh... no coloured font today. it's already the 3rd week into the sch holidays. and hv i finished my hw as i hoped i wld? NO. i havent even gone out wit my frens yet!!!! pathetic. so bz everyday. monday to sunday... practically everyday got smthn on. last week i totally screwed on my aural pratice during piano lesson. lolx. I CANT EVEN TELL CADENCES APART. sigh... dance practice in sch? terrible. 4hrs doing nthn. n' the tchrs owaex delay one. sigh... ms lee in nz. my 2 senoirs doing 2grds abv us took over to screw us. damn. i finally got ciara's cd 2days ago. damn isnt she good. sigh. nthn much to rite abt aniwaex.
buaiz.
20050612.
Melt Away @ 17:19.
tis is a teeny weeny post. why? cos i've nthn else beta to do ((: well... nadine might knw why. first about the friendster account thing and the STUPID dream i had 2 nites ago. sigh. after 1 week of no-dance. i had class today. leg stress arh now. aching muscles... sigh. tmr still got dance leh. as for ms lee, she's gone to NZ with the seniors. i wonder who's gonna torture us for the next few lessons... sigh. i dont knw wat else to rite. i'm still shocked at seeing the UNEXPECTED thing i saw in friendster. hais... i shldnt keep harping on it... but i dono wat the hell i'm doing to myself. come on. do you or do you not? it's hard to answer tt question. i'm suffering under the mere memory of him. sigh. la totura. i bet he doesnt even remember my existence. days are not as easy to pass anymore. day by day hearing the tym ticking away. tym wont wait for you. so wat am i doing to myself? before i get all touchy on my existence, lemme remind wat the hell am i doing on earth. wait a minute. i have no idea why. i havent had my calling yet. well. this is how i feel. torn apart. ignored. shunned. pissed. unwanted. stuck in this dark world with no one to share the burden. but then again. wat burden am i carrying? my mum would say. sadly to contradict her. EVERYTHING IS A PROBLEM. every thing i do. carefree lifestyle. which ass on earth would be so lucky? everyday. worries. love. friends. life. love? sigh. i'm turnming insane. i dont even knw wat i feel. he doesnt knw either. why bother thinking about him? i hv no idea. it's not smthn i force myself too. maybe it's not love. just an obsession? why wun i ask him? i'll find out then. but then again. rejection. what would happen to the world if flowers were made of glass. strong as they may seem. but they're as fragile as ever. wat if human hearts were steel? cold and hard. almost impossible to penetrate. discrimination and hate and pain and darkness and emptiness wat the hell is happening to me? i cannot believe anything can i?.
20050610.
Melt Away @ 12:42.
i hate them both. both buzzes around ur ears. sigh... bck frm m'sia liao... got bcktis morning... TIRED LEH... gma's place is full of mosquitoes. it's lykk i've gone thr to feed mosquitoes or wat. sighx... gone thr no shopping for clothes lolx. i got a few keychains, a music book and unfortunately, NO CDs!!!! argh~2 days ago in m'sia i went to use a comp in the cybercafe. gawdammit man. tt place is USELESS. they din allow me to go into MSN cos it'll dono do wat to the other comps. wat's more, speed of the internet was DAMN SLOW. to tink i was so happie to see the MSN beta version at first. civilisation. lolx... i doubt not. tok abt my cousins. zhuo lan's abt my sis age la.. so they're off to disturb me. her sis, zhuo mei rellie cute lolx. she's gonna be 3 later in the yr la... her eyes lykk got put eyeliner laiddt. one thing abt her rite, is tt whenever she falls, she doesnt cry!!! whereas my sis.... totally different story. but she oso veri stubborn lolx. tickling her's the best way to make her pay attention. weird huh. haix... guess wat happened to my phone? damn thing CANT EVEN SWITCH ON. eurgh. the dam switch button is jammed... even with the different covers i've used i still cant switch it on!!!! !*^@*@$&$^ eurgh. now wat? i'll scram. BYE.
20050604.
Melt Away @ 17:44.
the first week of the june holidays are over. dance practices have been driving me nuts. ms lee had class everyday since tuesday and same for the school dance practices... stress overload... even got piano lessons twice a week. SIOW! I said i wld do my homework... lol but in the end?!? i only did some of my maths homework!!!! =.=''' i've ordered another ballet leotard :D. had to download the new version of gunbound.. SIGH... and a exclassmate and i chatted yesterday after 3 long yrs. but i bu fu qi he taller than me. HRMPH! boon tiong swore at ruici yesterday. enough's enough, if i ever see his DAMN FREAKING FACE, i'm gonna kill him. i dun want ANYONE to harm my friends. to lim boon tiong: YOU'RE GOING DOWN! it's not her fault for changing my password. u're freaking immature. just leave her alone you asshole. ok... i'm going to m'sia tmr... going by coach cos dad's going to cherating... wherever tt place is lol... i've gotta pack my bags soon... My life's sorta in a mess now. span >I'm off to clean up some stuff.
byeeeeeeeeee.
P.S. Happy B'dae Greg :D
20050601.
Melt Away @ 16:26.
argh... i jux remembered... i've got ballet tonite... i went off to Bugis after school dance practice. My sis went to get her pink leotard at GL... then went to Parco... As usual larhx... off to seiyu. bought skirts. WAIT! hold it. SKIRTS?! Lolx... yar skirts. the last skirt i bought was lykk in P4 cos mum forced me too. but now... eh dono la... not so much of reluctance. COS TIS AINT THOSE SICKENINGLY UGLY skirts. i jux bought cos i running out of bottoms... even my shorts are not enuf... the ratio of my shirts to bottoms are lykk 3:1. btw, i wasnt the one paying newaex. arhahahah. now... pointe shoes!!! i got my toepad yesterday and went to get a new leotard.... i'll only get the leotard nxt week cos they ran outta black ones. the pointe shoes feel so much more comfortable wit toepad. ahhhhh...hahaha
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